ascending this lone path



sportygalz + yz;
jiang in yellow, charm in green, sam in colourful white, yz in white, nette in brown, im in pink.

rapture;
(from left) yz, sam, charm, nette, me, mlene


love you funny people :)




(from top left) charm + i, silly hwing being retarded (haha! MISS YOU!), sam's funny photo! and charm happily showing off (pls dont kill me) and ree being reetarded hahas.






esp for stephiphi i <3 you so :)
(fret not about your ridiculous hair which i strongly opposed to!?!?! announcement : it has grown!)



(click on photos to enlarge)


completely in photo mood..
shall have more when more recent ones are readyy.



//EDIT.
sudden oscillating emotional transformation from all that cheery pic up there, i know.
but i feel so empty.
its always nice to be subtly assured that you still matter, but when youre completely denied that assurance..
something has changed,
and whats worse is that i dont know what.
was it my fault..


UGH.
completely lagging in schoolwork + wayy to slothy.
this is called demand without the ability and willingness to pay in economic terms
psychogalz.


am off to brood to myself.
the best friend is away.
sobs :(
(quite literally)

ascending this lone path



sportygalz + yz;
jiang in yellow, charm in green, sam in colourful white, yz in white, nette in brown, im in pink.

rapture;
(from left) yz, sam, charm, nette, me, mlene





(from top left) charm + i, silly hwing being retarded (haha!), sam's funny photo! and charm happily showing off (pls dont kill me) and ree being reetarded hahas.






esp for stephiphi i <3 you so :)



(click to enlarge)


completely in photo mood..
shall have more when more recent ones are readyy.

maybe that's what it takes

my tinkerbell has gone to msia..
no drinking and shopping sesh (running from freaky policeman hollering at us and seeking refuge in ralph lauren because we jaywalked .. chut chut ness .. the perfect tyk lookalike RL/Lacoste folded sleeves top .. niu'er ness .. hahah) in the near future..or watching freaky jap / thai / korean shows and traumatise ourselves (sin city is too much, ms huang weiting and chan fei ju) .. or our constant discussions about certain worries .. or hanging out at yin sum sum's place, lying around talking or sitting by crazy suicical windows. all that indescribable happiness, peacefulness and laughter :) will be much missed, theres no one else like you.. :((((((

>>
bic runga - sway
coldplay - speed of sound
nada surf - if you leave
dishwalla - angels or devils
my chemical romance = helena
martina mcbride - valentine
jay zz - qi li xiang

:(


met nette, jiang and yz after tuition SORRY I WAS LATE, haha. major laughing sesh, stomach aching!! + all that muscle ache from bursting sportyness recently (5 items + tennis & jogging w charm hammie! ++TRAINING EVERYDAY hahahhaha. not literally la. inside joke) = dying and tired galzsx. haha although it was an awfully unlucky day (tasteless Pastamania .. why??? + highly unsuccessful neoprint attempts .. tell me whyyy~) hahah ah liansx ness.


ystd maju malled with stephiphi! :) -does that nod head mrm thing. hahah imy! v sleepy though. exchanged ipods with her..secretly~ think some of her songs qt nice haha. now i know what its like to have 3 poddie colours! pink (mine) green (tings') and blue (phi's) ! hrm, lame.


thurs was with nic..the island was vvv good! two thumbs up!


aloha,
florida!
haha
yet another inside joke..
thinking about all that we were laughing about just now
hahaha


ahem, interesting news abt d.h the past few days,
haha!


tired! tutoring tmrw
>:(((((((((((



when traumatising stuff is happening all around us (be it circle of friends or around the world), being at a loss foils and hinders any ability to help.. or is it?


-


cant stand some lame shite in school..
refuse to bother / engage myself at all.


ugh. completely lagging in schoolwork :((((


nightnight.

dont pretend youre sorry
i know youre not

im waiting, waiting, waitingggg.
and trying not to think about how it gets to me
the way you sometimes blatantly just
forget and expect.
but i know you,
AND i love you :)
miss my tinkerbell.


(the heading holds no bearing to my post, please! in case of misinterpretations.. ._.)


rapture dancers were wow!

though i secretly (okay openly now) thought it was a rather boring affair..
apart from erm, Night Life (according to nette) later in the night with nette and xyz..funny galz, hahah

and and finally catching up w da!
wtfk. ;)
reminscing sec3 days.
theres a difference with people you click on almost right away and can trust
and people you have to try so hard with..
and phi is right,
We shouldnt have to try so hard.
(btw steph imissyou larhh! friday is a longggg time away..)


wellll.
im off to watch wicker park with jiejie
till then,
still waiting..


EDIT //
did the jobfinder thing at karina's blog after reading about jiang's very apt job titles..and i got a tadahh shoplifter as my ideal job ._.
HOWEVER, upon entering my full name albeit the IC way, with my surname first (holding my breath with dread as anyone who knows me knows my full name is actually pretty gross..) BUT ALAS! the true me ought to be a Princess!
HAHAH.
shoplifter, my ass.
okay lame..
shall watch wicker park now now..
the only reason why my sis isnt complaining is because shes still blissfully massaging her legs with the osim thing..

anna nalick ; forever love


hrm. when i was supposed to be online i was asleep and now that im online, everyone is asleep :(


ystd was International Friendship (problems) Day
wellllll.


never wanted things to turn out this way,
never thought they would..


anywayyy i swear ystd we walked a million miles away from sch! haha okayy we walked all the way to queensway and got completely worn out (but according to soccergalzz jiang, this is nothing!) ._.


and why is it that after my 2.4, my entire body (ie limbs, arms, back, neck, tummy etc.) aches?!?! imagine how i ran! queerdo..


rapture ltr..not really interested in it actually haha but heard its supposed to be fabulous. andand, im meeting dadeedoo! :D :D been SUCH a long time.


if you leave, dont leave now
please dont take my heart away

we never had time on our sides
and now its fading fast


charmie hammie sorry again for not going! and congrats! :)

jyingzz what word vomit??

i hate everything about you

ive been such a computer illiterate!!
now it has finally dawned upon me the futile-ness of a mouse!
no cheese for misbehaving! i have the keyboard, so there.
ok thanks, my smartypants chocolate! (do not gloat pls hahah)


today has been completely a myriad of emotions


had a lot of talks! :)

encounter with d.h! -looks at jiang.
T-HEE.

didnt go for the hockey meeting! :( wanted to go! though i'd be kicked out once i step in it. WELL. nvm nvm..

picnic day today!
and the best food award goes to .. nettyyy! hahah your tuna wins hands down, dear!



LTJ is completely disturbing and effed up LARH.
we're SO PISST upon the wonderful discovery fiesta
talk about favouritism.


and then

sometimes
imbecility, insensitiveness (deliberate/accidental?), oblivion (ditto as previous), confusion ..



the ugly letdown,
nothing beats that.
why dont you see beneath the bubbling surface
and answer your own questions
im dying to eat up my big green J., believe me
but
patience and tolerance morphing into
creeping disappointment..
when will you see the visage, i wonder.
too late.


p.s thanks for the enlightenment, but i
dont need your senseless comments toward my burgeoning problem.

newsflash, you dont really know what im like.



maybe its just me ..
i shall not be wasting away.
smiles, everyone.
sleepyyyyyy.
falling asleep even on the school caf's tables,
carefully dodging rice bits and God knows what other stains and leftovers..ew ew.
and and, thanks all :)
yknw who you are.
dyou think tmrw will be a good day?
i hope so.

ladidum.
(thinks about the motivation. so shallow, so shallow. but it distracts..)

monologue! (priv joke.)
nighty.

and so it is.



is it me

or is the gap just widening
i know theres only one place for me
and its called

the second fiddle.


i live in my memory.
miss everything in the past.


err well.
night, all.

summer smile.

yipdeedoo! today has been quite a :) dayy

apart from lit pc test
traumatic hour and a half :|
then had the weekly uneasily leisure 2.5hr break.
watched the truman show during gp! its quite impressionable..
headed to yoshinoya with sammiekins + charm :) for a while

then met chocolate (haha!)
initial d was so-so
quite comical, haha.

what do you do when someone you could trust your life with .. goes?
way awayy.

you try to be mature and handle it calmly like you attempted to the previous times.

..

then it hits you that this time, its for real.

i think about the yester-gos


FINALLY friday! met tinks in the early afternoon (supp to swing by her place in the morning for a 'surprise' however due to unforeseen circumstances AND unwillingness to undergo yet another ass flattening experience during the typical hour and a half bus ride on my part, did not.)


yup, was another day to commemorate BGL Day..! (stop commenting on my niu'er ness! >:c)


forced her to try the caesar salad (yummier than Spagheddies'!)
however Tastes and Preferences whisked her away from my side of the approval line
tsk!
oh, was such an Anorexic Day (attempt)
scaled the many miles of Ridesford and Orchard Boulevard and CityHall
albeit the rare consumption of only caesar salad and minestrone soup and bread! (amazement of our survival)
to abstain from being CC (chut chut -laughs), us worrywarts!
oh my, suddenly a vague scene of us being conned by Starbucks Promoter appears in my mind! we have, sad to say, naively upsized our Whip Creamed Green Teas to a Grande. why, the nerve of that conniving..! not so anorexic after all..


-

Young women today have an impossible task living up to impossible and unrealistic body ideas. Miss universe probably goes around the world doing good deeds, but what does that teach young girls? only beautiful girls can be humanitarians? only girls in bikini can achieve world peace?

Young women are spending inordinate amounts of money and time transforming themselves because they dont like the way they look. The gap between reality and perfection is unlikely to ever be closed. Thin is in, and always being thinner than your current weight is the goal of most singaporean women.

The world media has only a narrow, unhealthy and superficial idea of what beauty should be, or of who or what is deemed worthy.

-


random shopping,
discovery of The 'Island Shop' #2!
hahah tinks and her One-Side-Only manner of donning earrings must resume
spread wide and far to syl too, ive observed
haha!
a bit of cheering up for tinks
due to a 2 week temporary loss of a loved one (ie the ipod)


walked to and fro,
being the fickle-minded people that we are
blahblah
watched a certain Jap movie
which i thought was Pretty Flu-ish,
but much to my dismay (and i suspect, syl's too,)
tinks was just sighing impatiently and shifting about, displaying her feet and wishing Aki would just hurry up and die already ._. all because her bladder was bursting. oh, heartless! hahah
hilarious how a rather Kawaii boy can resemble 3 distinctively different looking guys to 3 inane girls..



Loud and Boisterious episode @ Tommy H.
earns some mentioning,
for it celebrates the birth of Set E F G H (i dont know which) for CC tinks
very Pu Shu indeed.
but what was with that Erpipi salesman!
disapproving the white polo tee but insisting upon a Sunset themed flannel with horizontal stripes! to match with a checked Sunset themed skirt?? horrors!
Tastes and Preferences indeed.


and i refuse to believe that ive been reduced to such a waif
that even after tiptoeing on the highest end of this approx. 2.5inches wedge (which, obv is not an item of my posession..shall not fall prey to object of humiliarity when i trip and fall to my death. it was a shoe on display),
i am unable to achieve a hundred and seventy centimetres!
what is the world coming to
>:c


and and sylvia chan fei ju
THREE KILOGRAMS
+ talleste Starbucks
hrm.


realise im blogging in a rather Tastes and Preferences way today
pardon my codes!
still all hyped up
ystd was funfunfun :D


movie marathon on a lovely saturday as today
has been greatly shortened..
._.


happy Saturday Night Out, the remaining Nan Quanz!


hrm, SportyGalz, when shall our Chinatown+Little India shopping trail take place..??
mighty looking forward to it!
(-ignores the look of dismay on JAY YINGZ's (oh my the new nickname is.. ._. (eh! bracket within a bracket! doesnt it remind you of karina's bag within a bag thing..hahah) leave it to you to come up with it!) face)


time to try sewing up all the buttons that burst.
(hope you know i wasnt being literal but attempting to be metaphorical instead..)
randomness.


-


PHI you poor angsty galz!! we need to spend a nice saturday indulging in the homely Maju area, conveniently forgetting that certain sly and cunning rental shop has been conning us ever since we step foot in it (maybe we should resort to The Cool Rental Next Door instead? with its Fei Yu Ching cds to boot HAHAH) and rent that damned 13!! and also some oc lovin' (haha! our lovely S. Cohen..no no not seth, yes its you-know-who) :D :D MISS YOU!! harharhar. i secretly knew the online thing was a failed mission from the start..yupyup have recovered miraculously after attending school only once this week! :) WHEN ARE WE MEETING UP?!?!?!?!?!?!?


-


whew! long entry!!
Longestttttt Ever!
madness!!
-looks at clock.
shall return to Pride and Prejudice while awaiting the arrival of 3+
4 Blondes was fab! despite its bimbotic sounding title..
very Jane Austen with a martini indeed


have set my heart to ignore ignore ignore.
shall bear no interest in what people from school have to say.
okay, SportyGalzz?? :)
zilch. nada. (nada surf! haha..)


paradoxical situation,
London's joy of being elected for 2012
VS bombings
SIGH.
what is the world coming to!


im bored.
and annoyed with self.


/ phoenix ; love for granted.

cavanaugh park

headache + flu + sore throat + aching body = extreme grogginess + oblivious to everything

zz.


taking a good break from school.

sammiekins thanks for helping me sign up! am officially not cca-less after all. haha i wanna be sub editor too!! and OF COURSE i didnt cheat..-insulted. hahah kd. hope all is rightt, after your angsty/melancholic post..heart you so!

PHI strangeness! how can yours be traditional and adventurous at the same time! anw hw did it go? super tiring affair, all that photo taking and carrying huge stacks of clothes here and there..

ree thanks babe for your msg :) made me smile in my sleepy state! ily too..meet up soon okayy?? <3

mond;
steph's place then rushed to meet the rest at kovan

bbq was rather fun i guess :)
not awkward like i imagined it to be
jyingzz came up with games to amuse ourseleves with
freaking hilarious!
food was not bad, YES JYINGZZ THE RICE WAS EVERY BIT YUMMYLICIOUS
_{apart from the hair find..}


HAHAH
photo taking seshs to further amuse ourseleves..


random thought : it never ceases to amaze me how bitchy and gossipy guys can be. dont judge anyone you dont know very well. its not fair and it sucks to hear stereotypical comments. -rolls eyes. seriously, go GRAB a life. (reminds me of ele!! haha!) another to add to my list of Why I Hate School.

ugh.


rather sick of hibernating at home during my short two-day hiatus..
sudden rush of urge to see everyone!


cant help but feel that
when you take things for granted
karma comes and takes a toll on you
and moves you right to where you started.

i guess that all you've got
is all youre gonna get
so much for
so much more

dont you just love dashboard! nana dont start mocking me for my lists of songs in my ipod now..hrm, dishwalla angels or devils, thumbs up!


i think im having diarrhoea! fourth day consecutively. must be eating too much rahh food. mixture of crystal jade didnt help..tings complained of tummyache too! ugh. are all food secretly contaminated!


tutoring was horrific today. the kids pissed me off badly. ugh. to think that i happily bought naomi (??) sweets for them :(


off to nana's place after that..and unless you think lying by the pool at 430pm equates to tanning, then yes nana ree jiang and i were tanning..was being damn lazyyyy! FATTER THAN EVER BY THE MINUTE :(

ate lots as usual
contributing to my diarrhoea.


am officially The Sub!
.. what a sacrifice. haha kidding.
i cant believe im MANLY AND MOTHERLY.
-faints.
as long as it makes you starry la.


caught Be With You with the nan quanzz fam..
ODD, I SAY.
tiring affair.
but the show was fab!
having flu ..
haha.


hrm, catching up with pink bag galz (laughs!) @ crystal jade was :) :)
smiling at pots of plants and stacks of books
HAHA!
had a fab time..
<3 you guys :)
those were the dayyyys!


i miss the genuine laughter and all that fun
where did it all dissipate to..
hrm well.


stephiphi's place tmrw!
:D :D
yahoo auctions here we come..


shah la la.
hahah.
everyones doing this..!

Your dating personality profile: Big-Hearted - You are a kind and caring person. Your warmth is inviting, and your heart is a wellspring of love. Stylish - You do not lack for fashion sense. Style matters. You wouldn't want to be seen with someone who doesn't care about his appearance. Shy - You are often timid around others, though you will open up when the right person comes along.

Your date match profile: Athletic - You aren't looking for a couch potato. You seek someone who is active and who keeps his body in top shape. Big-Hearted - You want someone compassionate, someone gentle and kind. A loving, nurturing person will fill that hole in your life. Shy - You are put off by people who are open books. You are drawn to someone who is a bit more mysterious. You want to draw him out of his shell and get to know what he is all about.

Your Top Ten Traits 1. Big-Hearted 2. Stylish 3. Shy 4. Liberal 5. Athletic 6. Romantic 7. Sensual 8. Traditional 9. Wealthy/Ambitious 10. Adventurous

Your Top Ten Match Traits 1. Athletic 2. Big-Hearted 3. Shy 4. Stylish 5. Romantic 6. Practical 7. Adventurous 8. Traditional 9. Conservative 10. Religious

Take the Online Dating Profile Quiz at Dating Diversions


nonsense, i say.
sportygalzz are gonna mock me for being athletic :|
i didnt cheat, honest!


i dont care,
i have no luck.
i dont miss it all that much.

anyone who can touch you
can hurt you or heal you
anyone who can reach you
can love you or leave you


time to revive this space a lil..
all my papers are freaking screwed
congratulations to me
:(
math was fucking screwed la.
sadness.
OH WELL.


today spiced things up!
:)

met tinks (hahah!)
havent seen that girl since a month ago when the left for shanghai! hrm. doesnt matter. laughed so hard today. jiang and nette + tinks were being major nuts :D

great food + fab shopping (all butter choc cookie and teenvogue AFTER SO LONG and 4 mango items and 1 RL polo! :) + our usual freaky movie to boot = great laughs and happy times, yes. feels like the old days. which i need a lot of..


bumped into stj! (..nonsense opening line..haha)
and lotsa other people..such a town day.


looking fwd to 5 day hols
kicking off with holland v breakfast! and some oldold friends after.
:D

\\

Cause you can't jump the track, we're like cars on a cable,
And life's like an hourglass, glued to the table.
No one can find the rewind button, boys,
So cradle your head in your hands,
And breathe... just breathe,

There's a light at each end of this tunnel,
You shout 'cause you're just as far in as you'll ever be out
And these mistakes you've made, you'll just make them again
If you only try turning around.

2 AM and I'm still awake, writing a song
If I get it all down on paper, it's no longer inside of me,
Threatening the life it belongs to
And I feel like I'm naked in front of the crowd
Cause these words are my diary, screaming out loud
And I know that you'll use them, however you want to

But you can't jump the track, we're like cars on a cable,
And life's like an hourglass, glued to the table
No one can find the rewind button now
Sing it if you understand.
and breathe, just breathe
breathe, just breathe,
breathe, just breathe.


A Lot Like Love was fabfabfab
go watch it!! a million thumbs up. another title to add to list of favourite movies!
amanda peet is cute
and obviouslyyyyy so is ashton kutcher..haha
the soundtrack is also wayyy fab

anywayy
the thing is, i feel damn screwed right now..
this is seriously like shit!
ugh. ARGH.
school is starting in a few days..
seriously. ive never been filled with such extensive dread. its already been months but it just wont go away.
i
dont
want
school
:(
this is such a steph moment.
where art thou girly :( :(
i dont wanna wake up tomorrow.
my legs are tired just thinking about it.

\ feelitcomingallbacktome.

You've been so thoughtless
I can see right through you
You used to be there for me
don't you leave and say goodbye
You have changed, but so have I

I never thought that the time and the distance
Between us made you so much colder

youre my wonderwall

conclusion #1

steph is one who applies hyperbole-ism (self coined word haha) at its utmost extreme..
i keep reminding myself to keep this theory in mind, especially after all these years, but somehow her exaggeration never ceases to amaze me. theyre clearly outsmarting each other ._.
-faints.


conclusion #2

studying at anywhere else but home :
study breaks = shopping time.
which brings me to the topic of my fantabulous buys at fcuk+prints today hehe!
me+steph+rachel were happily raiding prints. and they were constantly mocking me for my taste in cards, yes ._.


conclusion #3

cookies and cream ice blended could secretly be coffee! be warned! do not be conned!


conclusion #4

local designers = COOLIO.
-looks at ree!
:D :D
-looks at the BOOKMARK jiang bought and laughs at her
haha!


conclusion #5

(its about time we faced this conclusion, steph)
the most recently published teenvogue mustve been june/july.


conclusion #6

three years plus of friendship dont mean nothing, nana! :)


conclusion #7

attempts to detox body will always fail
due to butter and etc that i always subconsciously add to my food


conclusion #8

initial d = jay chou + edison chen + shawn yue = screaming fans = not functioning escalators = HIGH annoyance = everyone BUT jayz's fault
hahah.
thanks and sorry, steph :)


conclusion #9

ironic as it is, IM-ing creates proper opportunities for interaction between the impossible, but also creates impossibility for proper interaction.


conclusion #10

BIRTHDAY BOOKS ARE SO NOT TRUE
i refuse to nod my head along with ree and jiang, no!


gdnightyy!

sweet misery

online shopping is the new fad..
hahah.

steph+i found a second resort in case majumall fails!
:D :D

last week of hols coming right up
im so freaking screwed
wish the second and third week could replayyyy
but then again, if i turned back time,
then the time wasted would be futile
cos out of the sandcastles ive built
i realise something else beautiful was constructed too,
so.

the oc craze is back,
brewing stronger than ever
STEPH I AM NOT IN LOVE WITH SANDY COHEN, your nonsense is seriously over the top.
emo oc songs + megan's furry presence + steph's company + well-carved faces + sweet saccharine + too many apples = fuzziness from within.
healthy activites :)

msn dollies!! i love tings. girl, i miss you!!
emptiness is always with us, yupyup.

HWING ths is a special shoutout to you tho you have a tagboard, haha. SMILE. im always hereee. lets try to revive wendy periods!! <3 you so.

charmie hammie, happy bday once again!! MISS YOU!

nette hahah you and your twitchy eye! everyday~! gossip queen. asap!! miss you too!

nana POK, stop it lo, you pretending galz. trying to check yourself out on the www!? horrible girl. hahah bt yes, thts really cool. meet up again? I NEED TO RUN/JOG/WHATEVER. and btw, steph INSISTED tht running fast for half an hr loses weight! are you sure! i thought its run slowly?? sprinting induces chunks of muscles right??

steph BITCHIEEEEE i absolutely adore you babe :D :D yes, number 2. we'll mail each other right. hahaha.

//
am talking to dadeedoo now..seriously getting worrying. i dnt evn knw wht ive been doing! havent properly caught up with so many people dearly missed. sigh. feel like visiting everyone right now and knocking on their doors to offer a huge long overdue hug. oh wellll. TIME FLIES.

butterflies
Swallow purple terror candy
Don't forget to breathe
Sickened by the wanting
And drowning from the need
And now I feel unsteady
Emotions on the blink again
So kick me
When you're ready
Here lies a violet coffin
The death of my control
Along with all my skeletons
They put them in a hole
Butterflies, butterflies
My heart will be
The bridge that
You walk over

haha actually my new fringe feels queer!
in a funny way. want to laugh at myself when i walk past the mirror.
i just hope it doesnt make me look littler.
gross!


anyhow
woke up this morning with a splitting headache
and the thing is i hatehatehate being sick
i think i mustve been thinking too much nonsense
so today
im emptying all the redundance
and letting it sail away.


shall change my layout soon
getting a bit too annoyingly morbid, dont you think!


studied with hwing today! we were bored out of our minds and wandering dazed souls all around the mall, when, tada! we decided to pierce our ears! funny thing was we suddenly flew wide awake and into a sudden study fit and studied without talking at all for an hour! funniness. ought to do such stuff more often. excites the nervous system! hehe. and hwing, im not littler at all! ._. will be sure to msg you about The Exciting Earring Twist hahah.

bumped into sq! momsiee, been so long.

and what is with funny boys with atrocious behaviour such as waving and blowing flying kisses through bus window panes..


talking to sammiekins now,
our conversation is haha, emo.
miss you, man!


and my favourite girl on earth (neat face cutie pie HAHAH),

wting' waste some time with u says:
aye wend

wting' waste some time with u says:
i feel like running away ley

wting' waste some time with u says:
v nice

wting' waste some time with u says:
just dun lk bk n run away

wting' waste some time with u says:
haha

wend' are you still leaving anways says:
hahah i dnt lyk running

wend' are you still leaving anways says:
i lyk walking

wend' are you still leaving anways says:
i lyk walking away

wting' waste some time with u says:
hahaha

wting' waste some time with u says:
u lazy pig

wend' are you still leaving anways says:
hahah really la

wting' waste some time with u says:
i'l walk away with u then


HAHA.

/ nada surf if you leave

say goodbye to yesterdays :)

\ and i hope this, along with everything else, makes you happy too :)
if you still care like you used to, that is.

its the way you make me feel

cant rmb wht song is tht
but tht one liner is stuck in my head!
people make me happy, yes
:D
happy post happy post.

i love steph
and the nan quans!
+ nana!

tad happier.
the old man crashing the cans.
._.

dont phunk with my heart

msn's died on me.
i really want to say so has everything else
but of course thats not the truth
the truth is i just died on myself.

i realise im not making sense
and i also realise my entries recently seem to have curtains of black clouds hanging all over them
but i guess i only feel like blogging
when i need some sos..

and the oscar award goes to .. me.

so i guess this is when i disappear
we were at sakae today, the teriyaki chicken don was wayy too filling
i told steph i feel like a stepping stone to people's happiness,
time and time again
and she told me she realised shes been too science-y and not been in touch with her arty fartiness
this is so screwed,
im lying about lying to myself.
cut my hair,
thought i'd feel better
i genuinely did -
i thought i had put everything behind,
buried and sat on it
but it just comes back anyways.

but of course i know
things arent the way they are
and i know how they actually are
so theres really no reason to be upset

BIG SMILE, so there.
SMILE LIKE YOU MEAN IT.
by the killers.
i just want to be happy.
:)

told you i have conflicting thoughts raging in my head.

happyhappy 18th nic :)

tried studying with steph tdy,
realise wht a failure it has been..
have i mentioned we both cut our hair
ladidum.
everything is just so far away.
i dont know what im doing.

i'll just cancel everything
and stay the way i wassssssssss
but what was i like?

completely <3 mk olsen



not lesbian k! ._.

/ i know this wont keep up
cos i was never anyone from the start
same like any other
dont know why but yknw i still bother!

nana thanks for your msg. i'll try okay? I LOVE YOU. cant wait for weds!